Sense of belonging

Seeing so many young people all around the streets, here there everywhere makes me feel happy that there are so many young energies... but when I got to know that many of these young people don't live for God, it makes me feel sad... A modern youth philosophy is being yourself and daring to be different... but everyone is doing the same thing, wearing the same type of fashion, using the same type of style, talking the same way.... There is nothing about being yourself and being different.... everyone is just the same when everyone is trying to be themselves....


People seem to think that Anjanette is being over believing or too fanatic....

but the real story lies deep within.... where I.. Anjanette is just another teenager searching for herself... but when I found the touch of Jesus, there is where I found myself....

When I think  about the past, I don't see myself... All I see is just another teenager with her bunch of friends doing things they thought is important,  just like everybody else.... doing things so that they are accepted...
But now......................

It doesn't matter to me anymore how much I belong or how people see me and whether I can fit in.. because my life is not revolved around my friends, its not revolved around having fun, its not about just being like everyone else wasting my precious life away............
But my life is meant for greater things....


I have many friends sharing with me about themselves and how they feel each time they are being left out...

When I see their problem, I saw my own shadow in their stories.... but the point is, I feel so great now that I don't belong.... in fact, many tried to tie me down to their gang or a specific group of friends... but it is by the grace of God that I do not belong... (and I didn't use the harsh way.. I just gently move away from that gang.. and no one dislike me for that)

Sense of belonging restricts me.... from making new friends, from getting to know more people... and that really scares me.. even the thought of it makes me disgusted...

Talking to the same group of people,hearing the same tales over and over again.... sorry man... That type of life is not mine.... and it will never be mine cause I don't want that type of boring life...

And I'm glad that I don't belong.. cause if i belong to this world, I'm doomed..... The world is only a temporary home.... so, grab this temporary time at this temporary place to save more people and bring them to the truth which is everlasting...
That is what  live for.....

Sense of belonging means nothing.......... the measure of its insignificance is just beyond what you can imagine when you open up your eyes and see the more important things in life and the many things that can make you smile when you see others around you smiling because of you.....

dedicated with love to my dear friend, Leonard