Church

It was a usual sunday today... just like the others... Today, Ps. Rajan preached about how we have favor in the eyes of God... And there was a part where he said that no matter how many failures we been through, how much we've been through, God's favor is still upon us... during that time, I was relating it to my life... sports is an arena where I suffer too many failures until i'm so numb and I'm so afraid to try anymore... i can say that i totally did not participate in any athletics sports this year.. partly is because I was not given the chance to do so... I don't know why my sports is just so bad that teachers just wouldn't even give me a chance to try our for it... I was kinda sad about this.. especially after the handball tournament... there were 5 matches (10 rounds) and i only played 1 round... am i really that bad? when i think back, i realized that i even managed to get on the school team is because Ckigu Zaimee was the one who did the selection of players.... When we were training, I played back center almost every time and when i only get to play 1 game during the tournament... that really freaked me out! As i ponder about these things... I feel myself so small....

then

The next line Ps. Rajan said.....
In all the circumstances, God opens a small door... and that small door will lead to a big door... And that really encouraged me... God has yet to show me that small door.... for this is only the beginning of my circumstances...