My life

2010:
it is quite a hard year for me as SPM is a very important exam... I have to sacrifice many things for the sake of tuition, tuition and unending tuition.. Youth is out, youth cell is out and many co-curricular activities like netball, handball and maybe public speaking and debate which i really love! so many things have to make way for SPM...

Sometimes life is not exactly the way we want it to be but we have to adjust to ever changing roads... I have this quote as my key chain^^ its sort of inspiration other than the 1st half of James 1:4

God has helped me so far.. we had sharing last week during CF (in groups) and I have A LOT to tell of how God has helped me since I got close to Him... I am truly blessed at all the wonders God has done in my life... since the beginning of this year I got so many good things from Him and experienced many great things happening in my life...

Since then I knew I made the right choice by giving up some things which I think are worth giving up.. because my heart and my mind tells me so... I believe its the Holy Spirit working in my life... I thanked God for that.. I thanked God for my freedom, for my carefree lifestyle, for my character, for what I have and for what I don't have and what I am going to have...

Being young:
there are a few issues/problems/things that young people face today:
1. the emphasis on outward beauty, beauty that can hardly be expressed (my school cares a lot about that)
2. the sense of belonging to a group of people / 'gang'
3. the updates of the latest trends and fashion and technologies
4. the timidness to widen circle of friends
5. the feeling of being famous
6. the concern of how others look at ourselves
7. the updates of the latest music
8. the desperation of couple love

Thankfully, I managed to overcome ALL this by the grace of God... I learned through this 5 years of my secondary school life... these 5 years has taught me many things...

Suprisingly, I can't be bothered with my looks.. i only want to look neat, clean, tidy and presentable... it took me a long time to overcome that. because I finally saw the essence of inner beauty which is what draws people to you...

and suprisingly, I don't have stage fright... I just can't have stage fright... I guess this is the talent God gave me...

While everybody is trying their best to fit in to their gang, I prefer not to be tied down to a particular gang which limits my freedom to make new friends...

the feeling of being famous... I don't think i need to worry about that maybe because since form 1 i'm being trained not to care about this matter..

It was until upper secondary that i realized the insignificance of how people look at us... I don't seem to care about how my schoolmates look at me and gossip about me.. because I have a God that is standing on my side!! If God is for me, who can be against me?

as for 'couple love'.. i somehow banned myself from that because I realized how limited everything can be and how things can turn out to be the worse for me if i fall into that trap.... I really thank God for that... Adrian is just a 'minat' thingy.. its not love as in couple love. don't get the wrong idea... Many asked me how I did it, and I just told them .. God helped me.. nobody believe my though..kexin thinks that my brain is seriously damaged.. but when the grace of God just came upon me, no words can describe how good I felt and how much He has given to me...

and i don't listen to world music anymore.. which is pop, r&b and etc.. I finally got over those music... it was really hard as music is my passion... It was really by the grace of God that Ps. Betty said that world music came from Lucifer and that prevented me form all that music... AMEN! so can you imagine how much God has blessed me?

I am no longer the teenager I was... still improving myself tough... still learning to be a better person, to be more and more like Jesus..

and I hardly have any sense of belonging because I don't want to belong to any group of friends or any gang.. life here on earth is temporary.. I NEVER WANT TO BELONG HERE... many people say i'm old fashioned and most of them say i'm outdated... I am GLAD for that because that proves that I did not throw aside the teachings my mum taught me, the teachings from my father.. and the teachings of the bible just for the sake of being UPDATED with the current lifestyle young people nowadays have... I AM HAPPY FOR THAT! AMEN!